.Wednesday, October 13, 2010 ' 6:00 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
yeah so tmr is maths exam finally
and then exams are over!! haha wooohoo!! but i hav a sour sinking feeling in me
everything is going too fast its soon going to be the end of the year
the same streaming the same separation
it brings me back to last year when i cried my eyes out after knowing i was transferred to 2E2 and all my gals had gone to a diff class
1E3 was awesome n i will never forget the fun times i had with all my classmates
but now everyone from E3 has changed its like i dun noe them anymore
especially my gaga its like he used to be special
he still is but its jus dat he is not the same gaga i fell in love with
my gals...thank god are still AWESOME like they have always been
hahaha
this year leavin 2E2 will be another heartache for me
all the friends i have made and all the people who i spent most of my time with this wwhole year
will soon get separated again...
but like i said i am a huge stalker haha will not spare anyone
MY sciencce was an epic failure
screwed it up perfectly
Sunday was the worst day of my year when everyone was studying n i was supposed to i wasn't
i was practically busy crying my eyes out
i messaged all my friends wishing them good luck for their exams n another msg dat proved someone an idiot
i acc sent the msg to gaga
i was soo happy to see that he msged me and then i realised i had sent him one first
i opened the msg n to my worst expectation
gaga told me to fuck off his life
i mean wad was dat supposed to mean..huh??!! its like in school he is practically a loner always seeking attention from the whole world but i dun understand why i can't care for him i fail to understand why he hates me so much?? cos i like him?? thats jus crap!
i noe its as though i am boasting or so but i feel that i am the only person in school among his so called friends that actually cares for him i am the only person who acctually looks out for him i am the only person who feels hurt when he falls down i am the only person who feels insulted when people insult him i am the only person who feels sad when he is ignored
i feel so hurt that he fails to understand me we used to be such great friends and now i have to get out of his life...when she dumped him i was not there for me that incident hurts me so much cos i could nvr be there for him at all...not like he was ever there for me
i keep asking myself why the hell do i care so much about him!?
when he doesn't give a shit bout me....
maybe its jus me, maybe i am worth to only be hated by the people who i love
maybe the only way i will ever get his love is by his hatred
i dun know...i feel all numb my mind is in a blackhole
i dun feel like becoming sec 3 anytime soon nor do i want the year to end
things are jus moving to fast ahead for the worse
i dun like it...but guess that is wad life is all about
we have no control over it huh?
i am totally signing off now cos if i continue...god knows wad i'll spam...haha so bye peeps
good luck for maths n ur results!
